It’s easy to swirl and drift and fade and cry and lose focus when you wake up at three am and it seems like nothing, really nothing at all, can convince you the path you are on is even remotely the correct one, and sometimes it feels like all the decisions you’ve made were just wrong, simply wrong, and there is no escape, no way to rationalize your way out of it, especially at three am, and the plans you had are hazy now, the hopes you had are in pieces, and even sleep is not helping.
Yeah, that feeling. Me too.
So I made a “Reminder Page” to help me recall and look forward to the amazing people in my life, the ones I love beyond love, the ones who keep me going, the ones when I was young, the ones who are gone, and the ones here now, the ones I will see again soon or someday, and we will laugh, because before those times in these photos, not long ago and longer ago than that, it was three am and I couldn’t sleep and no medicine, no pep talk, nothing was going to make it feel right, and look–I mean just look–at the beautiful people who met me after that for a cup of coffee, a glass of wine, and we laughed, oh my, we laughed.
and we had the time of our lives.
“For what it’s worth, it was worth all the while”
Thank you for sharing this pilgrimage with me
(it helps now if you scroll to the bottom and play Green Day and listen while looking at pictures…just saying)